I’m Sorry if I Made it Look Easy; It’s not.

In the past year, I have had multiple friends message me regarding motherhood. How do I get it all done? What was my secret?  How do I make it look so easy?  First and foremost, Motherhood is not easy and if I made it seem that way; forgive me. Social media has a way of only showing the good. It’s a juggling act with no comparison. Fulfilling everyone’s needs without losing yourself along the ride. It’s why I run. I find myself in those runs and it’s something just for me.  Running grounds me and helps me be a better mom.  It put things into perspective and I want my boys to know that their mom can kick some ass.

In my opinion, motherhood should be the great equalizer.  Instead it’s a fierce competition to get back to your goal weight, breastfeed your child just long enough (too long and you’re weird – too short and you’re a horrible mother) and going back to normal as if nothing happened. I call bullshit.  This shit is hard. It’s fucking hard and in the United States its even harder with the lack of care given to mothers.  Being pregnant, giving birth, caring for a new born – all of it is really difficult.  It’s the most emotionally vulnerable I have ever been.  You give birth to this baby that your body created that you may or may not feel emotionally attached to and you have to care for its every need even though you have just been through one of the most traumatic things your body will go through.

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Bowen at 2 days old.  I only look fresh because they take good care of you at Bryn Mawr Hospital

Its easy to think everything is great when all you get are the happy pictures of a beautiful family. But don’t mistake a couple of picture perfect moments to be the whole story.  Right now, I have two loads of clean, unfolded laundry on my bed, my kitchen floor is in desperate need of being moped.  I have bills in my purse that need to be paid and checks that need to be deposited.  Last night I went to bed at 8:30 pm because I needed to be up at 4:00 am to feed the baby and then fit in my longer 8 mile run before I had to work in the morning.   There was plenty of things I needed to do around the house but I opted for sleep for my long run because that’s what I needed.  I am firm believer in a happy mommy = happy family.   So take care of yourself, you’re the only mommy they got.

I will be following this up with things I do to stay mostly on top of life with two kids, a full time job and all of my extra curricular activities.  Anything you find helpful in your life?

Batona Trail Series

 

On Sunday January 8, I completed the final leg of the Batona Trail series.  I knew nothing about the Batona Trail prior to signing up.  My exposure was limited to speeding by the forest on the way to Long Beach Island for the weekend.   It seemed like a desolate place for motor cross and four-wheeling, all I ever saw were bikes and jeeps on the sidetrails. I definitely would have never thought it could be a pretty place to run. Now that I have seen the entire 53 miles of trails, I have a new found respect for the area and the ever-changing beauty of nature.

The series begins in September and finished up in early January. The monthly runs range from 8-13.5 miles.  Back in September I was dragging during the first 8 mile run.  It was before my first postpartum half marathon.  Even the 13.5 mile leg after my half marathon took more effort then I remembered.   But by the time December came around, I felt strong at the end of 20 miles (instead of carpooling from the end to the beginning we just ran out and back to get more miles in).  It’s a considerable difference how my running has improved and how my body can handle the long runs.  I am starting to feel more like myself and it feels amazing.

Although, at the end of the final run in January I felt like I had cinder blocks on my feet – you couldn’t wipe the smile off my face.  The trails were covered in fresh snow.  It was picture perfect like something out of a movie.   I felt like a kid discovering something new. I just couldn’t stop smiling.  It was my first experience running in snow and it could not have been any better.  Although the weather was somewhere around 10 degrees the trees protected us from the 20 mph winds.  We were isolated in this amazing labyrinth of white except it wasn’t difficult to follow thanks to the faster runners ahead of me.   My theme for 2017 is to get out of my comfort zone and try things I wouldn’t normally do and running in the snow in 10 degrees is definitely one of them.  It was astonishing.

Definitely excited for more adventures in 2017.  Thanks for reading.

December Roundup

I know… I know.. I already posted my New Years Resolutions for 2017 so who cares about how I did in 2016?!  Well here goes any way.  Better late than never:

2016

  1. Write a blog – with at least two posts a week – I didn’t write twice a week but I wrote enough to feel accomplished so I am checking this one off the list!
  2. Run 500 miles – I may have to reduce this depending on how I feel with this pregnancy but let’s shoot for the stars for now  Completed December 29, 2016🙂  Finished the year at 520 miles to be exact.
  3. Save $6,000 by the end of June – $1,000 a month here we go!  Boom! Completed April 2016!!
  4. Finish one 12 week session of Kayla Itsines Beach Body Workout – this was on my 2015 goals but running took precedence – Just like every other time I have made this my goal, running took over.  I don’t really feel bad about it.  I think I keep putting this goal on my NY Resolutions thinking it will get done if its on here but that doesn’t seem to work either so I am just not going to worry about it.  It’s obviously not that important to me.
  5. Side Hustle – Sell 60 items – hoping this can supply my cash spending for the year Boom Completed July 2016!!  I did really well here because I kept at it even after I achieved my goal.  I am definitely going to keep this going just not going to keep as much track of it.
  6. Finish my Real Estate License – Online classes and I just don’t get along.  I have to find another way.
  7. Call my mother once a week – I hate talking on the phone – I didn’t call her as much as I should have but I did fly her up three times from Florida so I think that makes up for the lack of calls.  What can I say I hate the phone.
  8. Help my hubby accomplish his climbing goals –  On December 29th he finished up this goal.  Boom.

So overall I finished 6 of my 8 goals and I had a baby last year so I would say I kicked ass.  2016 was good to me and I am finally starting to feel like myself again.  Thanks for following along.  Special thanks to my hubby for helping me get these goals done and for this pretty picture:end-of-the-year