I really want to meet someone who has it all together.  Clean and organized house.  Full time job.  More than one kid. Dinner on the table every night.  Finances in order.  Works out on the daily.  Do they exist?  I don’t think they do.  They appear all over on Facebook and Instagram. The energizer mom with their shit together.  They must be getting some help.  Cleaning lady? Nanny or grandparents that help out regularly?  Food delivery service?  All of the above and they can’t possibly sleep.

I feel like I am always busy doing something but nothing ever really gets done.  My house is never really clean or organized.  I’m never truly consistent on any workout plan or regimen.  My take-out/restaurant budget is always maxed out.  My three year old is basically living off of chicken nuggets and my one year old would sustain himself on blueberries, corn and  mac & cheese if we let him which I must admit; sometimes we do.  I just don’t feel like I have it together.  I know I am being too hard on myself.  I’m comparing myself to something that doesn’t exist or if it does it’s not the norm. But how do people fit it all in?

I guess I feel like I have been more reactive then proactive lately and I don’t like that feeling.  I am feeling great about the amount of stuff going out the door but I always feel the need to do more.  I am not feeling great about my lack of exercise.  I need to get back into my early morning runs.  They help clear my head and get ready for the day.  My main problem is I am trying to do it all, when I should focus on what makes me feel better.  Getting more physical activity in my day will help tremendously.  So I am going to make it goal #1 for August.  Of course instead of running this morning, I did the dishes, made breakfast and did two loads of laundry but if I put this in writing I will make it happen so here it is.  Here goes nothing! Wish me luck!

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